*Clears throat* is this thing on???
I know what you’re thinking, is she really starting a blog, with a b? Or maybe you're not thinking that at all. Either way, let me explain..
Truthfully, I’ve been struggling with keeping up an online persona. The need to constantly be seen or heard or just consistently present online started to feel like a full time job. Trying to stay up on trends, active on social sites, present in real life and be all that I can to the people around me, was draining my battery and triggering my anxious-avoidant personality style. I was either bulk posting or ghosting every platform. No in-between.
At the top of 2023 I started making major life changes (which we will get into) and everything was influx - my show was canceled, I didn't know wtf I wanted to do with my career, my body was changing, my relationship was changing. It all felt so…2008. Like I was 14 again or something.
Though year 27 has brought physical, mental, emotional and social challenges, they’ve felt so familiar. Am I confident and insecure at the same time? Yes. Are my growing pains physically hurting me the same way they did as a teenager? Yes. Am I “not cool” because I’m not popping on social media? Probably. Because of this, I couldn't help but wonder, are the 2000s back? Have we progressed so much as a society that we’ve inevitably circled back to basics? Was my mom right when she said nothing is new under the sun? Do I need to start blogging again?
The answer is, yes. In fact, I am going to start blogging again.
We all know Instagram is more of an advertising marketplace than it is anything else. Facebook is literally the geriatric ward. Twitter is a cesspool of misinformation, unsolicited biased opinions, the battleground for gender world war III. And well, I can only get ready so many times on the Tok. So why am I trying to fit in spaces I know I’ve outgrown? Why am I trying to force myself to do stuff and produce content on platforms that eye don’t even like anymore?
AmandaSaidso is my new social platform. It’s my digital community where we can all share thoughts, views and opinions with each other without backdrop of toxic internet culture. Here, I will rid myself of imposter syndrome, shed the layer of “on trend”, and feel confident about sharing my creative ideas authentically.
So, yeah! We are throwing it back to 2008. The girls are blogging again. Why?
Because, I said so…
xoxo amanda